One step forward, 2 steps back.

I felt really good over the weekend, i had managed to secure a job interview, despite my illness this year. I was reluctant to apply for the job, as i thought if i didn't get anywhere with it, i would start to feel low again. Sadly i didn't get the job, and again i found myself feeling like a total failure last night. I can't believe that this time last year i was applying for, and being interviewed for SMT posts. I worry that my confidence has been knocked so much this year that my career is now well and truly on the scrap-heap.

Did some crafting today to take my mind off things, which helped a bit. Can't post these, as they are surprise items for later this month.

My Aunt Anita (Seems strange calling her this, we only ever use her first name!) is 50 this Thursday, there is very little age difference between me and her. I remember in the 70s when i was still a kid she always seemed cool, very keen on Glam rock (The Sweet were a big fave!)

I've sent her a card with a very small reminder of her age upon it... not sure how i'll feel when i hit 50! Maybe relieved as will be that much closer to retirement :)